I try to tell myself I'm okay
That happiness will come another day
But everytime my hope is lost
And right now that seems too great of a cost
Cause hope was the only thing keeping me going
And now all my fears are finally showing
Fears I've tried to hide from myself
Kept in the darkest cornor and on the highest shelf
But now somehow I've come undone
And all my fears are shown to everyone
I can't hide behind my lies
Even though I want to and I try
And now I'm exposed but I still can't see
Who I am or who I'm supposed to be
My mind is racing and I'm so confused
Yet somehow I'm unable to be soothed
What I thought I wanted now seems so dumb
I just wish I could make my heart be numb
So the pain that comes with every rush
With all the feelings that come with the crush
Would never be able to hurt me again
So now I just wait for my poor heart to mend
